Insomniac

Burning like wild fire

 I can't sleep

I keep on thinking

 Finding it hard to breathe

 My eyes are open,

I'm fully awake...

 I want to scream for help 

But everything seems vague

 I think I'm going through a plague 

Where I'm trapped in my own dreams

I can't come out of it

 Even tho it seems fake 

I wake up to pray 

But nothing seems to be working

I feel betrayed by my own body

 Or is it something else that's lurking

 I realize I'm sweating heavily 

In these dreams where a monster keep chasing me

 Leave me alone... I shout in my head

But it doesn't seem to be working

 What have I done wrong?

 I ask myself utterly sunken

 There is still hope, i try to convince myself

There are pains but more gains 

The benefits are more worthy, at least

 When will they finally leave me alone

 I want to be at peace

 They diagnosed me with insomnia as my most common disease

  I watch everyone around me 

 Forgive me but I watch in envy

When will I be able to sleep naturally

I've done pills, milk, and yoga

But nothing seems possible

        Truly is there a rainbow at the end of the tunnel?

       When will all these nightmares just be mere dreams? And all these cold nights I can't sleep just be memories? trying to survive 

   Throughout all my life

Breathing, thinking

    

     

 I've finally realized, an insomniac I'm meant to be 

By Mulikat Mustapha.